Doubts

I hide my feelings. I kept it to myself. I've told no one. And I don't know how long I can keep up to this. The way your eyes would light up when you smile, can't help but stare into it for a while. I don't even see anybody when I'm with you, and I know we're both trying to shine through. But there's just so much getting in our way. And sometimes I do doubt the things you say. You say you love me, but you won't make a commitment, I can't be with someone who I have to convice to be with me. I doubt how our future would be. Will you love me like you say you do? Will we ever be happy together? Will you break my heart? These are the questions that runs through my mind. You have no idea how bad I want this, you have no idea how long I've been waiting for you. But I fear you, I fear if you would leave me for another girl. I don't wanna hurt anymore. And I hope you won't let that happen to me. Everytime I look upon your face, I can't feel anything at all. And everytime you walk by, I could count the colors in your eye. I would always stop and stare, as you run your fingers through your hair. Of all the girls, I'm the only one that would care, I would always be there. Yes, I love you, I swear. I want you so bad, baby, you drive me mad. But I can't wait for you, how are we gonna make it through. I waited and waited, I go on and on bout this, how long should I wait? Well, I can't. I doubt you love me enough like you say you do. Sometimes, you confused me, a lot though. What are you trying to show me, how you want us to be? Im tired of being "just a friend" to you. I know we're meant to be. I know we could shine better than this. I know we're more than best friends. I could give you a bunch of reasons why I should be the one you choose . Those other girls, well they're beautiful. But they don't know you like I do. They don't understand you, but I do. I know all the things you like, we share almost everything together. We have a lot in common. And,those other girls , they would never spend time to write poems for you, like I would. I may seem like I don't care for you, but that's just me trying to cover it up. If I didn't care for you, I wouldn't write, talk or think about you. But what hurts me is knowing that you're not mine. Please tell me we could be more than friends. You mean everything to me. You were there to talk to me when I break down. You could still make me laugh when I'm crying. You still calls me beautiful when I look like a train wreck. Think about how you're around your friends and so different around me. Unexplainable. I know how I feel, and without a doubt, my feelings are true. I want to be with you. You're the only one that has been running through my mind. Would you be mine?