LIES ,

Secrets, silence, whispers, I'm tired of these. All of it. My feelings inside, its killing me. I told everyone that I'm so much better without you, but that's just a complete LIE. What am I going to do ? I break down every time you walked by. Your eyes, your stare . It'll just make me weaker. I just cant stop loving you . I tried to move on so much , but somehow you would keep running through my mind . I know you still love me , but could you please tell me whats getting in your way ? I know how am I insane to you . How am I "just a friend" to you . But I don't want it that way . Cant you tell that I'm loosing every breath through every second . I don't how you could just lie to my face like you did , I know I couldn't lie to someone I love . You're trying to avoid me , ignore me . Even when you said we could be the best of friends . I rather you be mean , then me trying to say goodbye . I sometimes get emotional when I see you with another girl . Sliding your hands on her cheek , playing with her hair . I thought back , you've never touch my face , never played with my hair . And I know you've never loved me like you love her . You don't mean what you said . But what hurts me is knowing that I'm not worth the truth . We do almost everything together . We take the same bus to school , we're in the same neighbourhood , we're in the same class , we have the same tutor , we join the same school clubs . Even though we do so many things together , but it wasnt the old us anymore , you don't touch me that way anymore , you don't see me that way . You treat me just like another stranger . I gave you my all , and this is what I got . Now I regret for being the girl who people used to call "your gf" . Cause everything changed not the way I planned , and it has gotten worst . Erasing you from every thought i have. I’ve never met you, I never shared moments with you. I want nothing to do with you. I feel so sickened to think of the times we had shared. You’re not any different then the rest. But now you’re just something i erased. I don’t want you taking up my thoughts. I just want you out of my head. You’re a liar, and now you’re dead to me. I might as well erase you from my mind , cause I know you did that with me already . Just thought I should let you know , I love you .