BREATHE ,

Wake me up , tell me , save me . Cause I cant find myself . The true me I used to believe , the true me I found , lost again . Everything turned around in a glint . Back then , I thought of if I ever loose you , will I be able to continue breathing . And now that I've lost you , I cant breathe . Without you I'm nothing , I don't know who I suppose to be . I'm tired of pretending to be someone I'm not , cause it doesn't feel right . But with you , I felt different . When we're together , we could make anything happen , and I know we can . But when we're together , we had only seen the outside view , we never knew whats struggling deeply inside . And its not halcyon . It was like the glade of pain . But does that means we have to be apart ? I tried to fulfill your thoughts , I tried so hard to make us both happy . But I omitted that . And now I cant face reality . Obvious , I didn't get my perfect fantasy . This ain't a fairy tale . We cant just make a wish and wave a magic wand, those were childhood stories . I don't know how to cure this . I swear I can hardly breathe , felt like theres pressure in my lungs . Its like our lungs were tied together , and you kept holding my breath . Hope you know its not easy for me . I tried to move on so much . I couldn't just walk away and forget about you , I tried , but somehow you could popped out in my mind . I wish I could take back the steps that I took , to find my mistake . I know we argue a lot , but my love is just strong enough to get over it . But I doubt if you love me like you say you do , I doubt everything you say to me . I may seem like I don't care for you , but thats just me trying to cover it up . I'm dying , but you somehow don't care anymore . I might just erase you from my mind , cause I know you did that with me already . Well , nothing left to say , this is goodbye , I wish you the best with , BELLA .

MELODY ,

I tried so hard to make both of us happy . But somehow you could just run away with "sorry". Mistakes , lies , those were full in you . And I've never saw it all the way through . You hurt me , a lot . And I would let you torture me , all the time . They cant see the smile I'm faking , and they never knew whats in my mind . I'm not interested in hurting you back . I know maybe I'm not good enough for you . Neither do you . They said I deserve better , I know I do , but I don't want better though . I love that funny , sensitive and always quibbles guy . I know I'm fleeting in your mind . I set my heart upon a hope , for you to think about me . And mend this mar connection . I couldn't be lust . Its like the voice in our song faded slowly . I see your face and my heart races . Your standing across the aisle and I couldnt help but glance . I tried to leave you , but there is just something about you . You have this effect on me that just makes me wanna crawl right back to you . My heart lost the other half , and its right inside you . But too late , you gave it away to another girl . Now I dont know what to be without you . We screamed , we fought , we danced in the rain . We had to skip the movie to watch the football game . Through all , betwixt wonderful and hurtful romance . If I didnt care , I wouldnt talk , think , or write about you .What hurts me is knowing that you are not mine .You're running through my mind all day , but its just my little secret . You just dont know it , I wish you did .If I didnt care for you , I wouldnt cry for you every night . As I sat on my bed , with you stuck in my head . I played my guitar , and tears start dropping . I sang a melody , hope to god you're listening . Just thought I should let you know ,

I miss you so much .

SHADOWS ,

None of us thought this it was going to end this way . All of the butterflies in my tummy flew away . I don't feel anything anymore . Its different . I've lost him , unexpectedly . Never thought it wouldn't work out . As I saw his face in the hallway , our direction would turn into separate ways . He used to sit across my table , but I don't find him anymore . Everything changed , way too much . I swear I miss him , but I couldn't touch his hand . He's not for me . This world is full of people pretending to be who they are not , but when I'm with him , I know who I suppose to be . Now I don't know what to be without him around . And I know its never easy to forget him . Cause we went through a lot . All those arguing , crying , CUTTING . That's what made us tight , we learned from it . But this time , it has ended . Without wisdom . I felt deeply confused , never thought he's the one I would loose . I know , I'm not as perfect as her . But right now , I'm truthful , thats for sure . He's the only one at the back of my head , he's stuck in my breath . But I couldn't find his person . What I felt was his shadow . His shadow is whats left . And it only shows the part of his thought about me . While the other side of his life is filled by that bitch . He's bygone . So let it be . Let that shadow haunt me . As the wind blows the withered leaves , as I sat under that willow tree . As my tears dropped on the pages , as I put wan through many faces . His shadow, was always inside me.

WORDS ,

He said he loves me , he said he cant live without me . But look at him now , where is his position . Could somebody tell me how , to survive this situation . He's not standing next to me no more , he doesn't say he loves me , no more . Wake me up and save me , tell me he's not right for me . Promises , words , those are just lies . He used to have that sparkle in his eyes . But now it's like the faded light in the sun , all of the shadows coming undone . Sparks in his eyes , were just darkness of his lies . All of it faded away , left me scentless , colorless , friendless , I felt so LONELY . Everybody keeps telling me , "move on" , "forget bout him", "he's not worth it" , "you deserve better" . Well , that's all they can say . Its just the same words everyday . They solaced , I tried to comprehend , but I drooped . Our love was such a vain , this time he made me wane . Everybody could easily try to make me get over him , but its not a lark to get over someone you've been together with for almost two years . I thought seeing him from far away was enough , and I even thrown away all his stuff . But I guess I was wrong , I cant even stay strong . I felt so used , but I dont want to believe that . And I know I was , but nobody can turn back . And now I'm just sitting at the corner of the room thinking what I did wrong . Not hanging out with the clique and trying to bring me back to life . Just sitting alone , feeling depressed , hurt . And who knows how long I would cling to this emotion . The teardrops on my face , I'm crying for him . I can hardly breathe , and this is when I needed him the most . But he's with another girl . And So I'm in the dark , couldnt see the light shineth , couldnt hear any voice sayeth . Alone in darkness , Tears in loneliness . Well , this is thus of believing in

" I LOVE YOU "

Love , I guess thats just how it works . But I guess I know why everybody wants it so much . Its the closest thing we have to magic .

She Cant , She Doesnt , She's not for YOU ,

She cant see the way you run your finger through your hair ,

every time you are shy .

She cant see the way you stop and stare ,

every time she passed by .

She never notice how your eyes sparkle when you smile .

She doesn't know you the way I do ,

she doesn't love you the way I want to .

But you only see me through .

I'm the one that you never knew .

I felt invisible , if we're together , it would be a miracle .

You are worth fighting for ,

but , I guess now , you won't need me anymore .

Be my friend ,

Why do i feel this ?

Why must it be like this ?

My feelings i cant be sure .

The lines that i cleared, are now blur .

I cant get this through ,

Could never get over you .

I want this to end ,

Want you to be my friend .

I'm dieing in this misery ,

But I want to be alone .

Go ahead and kill me deeply ,

I wanna bleed on my own .

Another glance , lets be friends .

I dont want to have your romance .

I could never love you again ,

Not more than a friend .

I wanna take everything slow ,

I wanna go through this sorrow ,

Through every tears , I will learn .

Through every breath and romance burned .

You are no more my lover ,

You are just a former .

Please be my friend ,

Let me survive this pain .

Its 3 a.m. ,

And I'm cursing your name .

I can love you no more ,

And I'm closing the door .

Please understand ,

Just be a friend .

With or Without ??

I can't keep on to this any longer ,

Being with you made me felt better .

Hating you made me felt awesome ,

Thought of like the flower blossom .

Our love could be bigger ,

Wished to stay this way forever .

But still , you made it hateful .

And taking every step, its painful .

I thrown all of your stuff away ,

But the memories would always stay .

I'm confused , what am I feeling ?

Can't loose in every breath I'm taking .

You're so ridiculous , I can hardly breathe .

But you're fabulous , Don't know if I'd see .

Screaming and fighting , Loving and blurring .

Hate and pain , Cursing your name .

Cant be with or without you .

True Love

A true love happens all the time ,

But you cant buy it with just a dime .

You need to fulfill her with all your heart ,

Or you both will sadly break apart .

Someday she'll listen to you ,

Maybe even love you too .

But you cant make it a secret that you keep ,

Or you wont be the page in her diary that she'd flip .

It may be tough , but let it out .

Proof to her that you're not a trout .

So raise your voice and shout ,

" You're the one I can't live without ! "

You're Gone ,

It's like the faded light in the sun ,

With half of my work undone .

Couldn't see the spark shineth

Couldn't hear your voice sayeth

Wish i were right there,

standing next to you,

On a balcony in summer air .

And enjoy the beautiful view .

When will come spring ?

hear the robin sings .

Sitting under that willow tree ,

With you reading a book right next to me .

Took me to see your blooming garden ,

Picked a beautiful rose .

Helped me bake cookies in the oven ,

Praised me and pinched my nose .

As I grew up the wall gets high ,

Thought that we're stuck, but you said goodbye .

Passing away saith my soul ,

You left me feeling so cold .

Shivers and in pain ,

Showed the shadow in the rain .

You're gone ...

True Friends ,

You can say that they're the losers,
But they're definitely the winners.
Maybe they dont always comes first,
Cause they'll care for the ones who was left behind.
They will fill us when we're in thirst,
And be with us together to cross the line.
It's sad when you cant reach the nightsky stars,
But why have to go that far,
When you can reach the brightest star,
That will always accept us for who we are.
By day, they are the brightest star on the ground,
By night they are the enchanting star in the sky.
They will never let us down,
They will always keep our head held high.
They've been with us through goods and bads,
Even moments that were happy and sad.
Through our journey of tears and laughters,
Stuck in fear and survive together.
I could never keep a smile that way,
With them around, everything's okay.
They will always understand and will always lend a hand.
Because they are my TRUE FRIENDS .

The Fall ,

The future came from the past,
Memories captured as time moved fast.
Really hope to slow things down,
But my feet cant stay on the ground.
Feeling pulled away by the wind,
Feeling the pain on my skin.
Tired of holding on to that pole,
Didn't knew you're stuck in my soul.
I'm standing right at the edge,
Waiting for you to make the catch.
But it's too late, there's no escape,
I'm still gonna fall, its the last call.
I'm sorry for everything my dear,
I would think this is my last tear.
I cant stay strong anymore,
I know you're worth fighting for.
But, i want you to be happy,
Lets forget our painful history.
Get me out of your life,
Forget about this strife.
The struggles I'm facing,
I'm tangled in loosing.
I cant face my fears,
Even when you're here.

Believe

Revealed the true me today,
Found myself and ran away.
Never knew the voice I had,
that's been pulling me back.
The sound I shouldn't have find,
has been hiding in my mind.
Where is my truthful place ?
The dream that I have to chase.
The journey I'm taking,
The tears I'm shading.
Gave me so many doubts,
I need to figure this out.
I'm feeling so confused, but I cant loose.
Sometimes things may go wrong,
but i need to stay strong.
someone told me not to care what people say,
Just keep it real and make it my own way.
speak out when the right time reaches,
and be proud of our own choices.
it doesn't matter what people say,
It doesnt matter how long it takes.
You will never fade away,
If you would learn from your mistakes.
Life with wrongs is a perfect life,
we need mistake to survive.
We need to learn from every mistakes that we made,
and there would exist a new adventure to explore .
Just believe in yourself and it's never too late,
A dream is something worth fighting for.
We may be going through sorrow and deceit,
But we just need hope and faith.
Take a deep breath and take the first step.

The Perfect Gown ;

I love the way you put your eyes on me,
I love the way you laugh and joke with me.
The way you smile and frown,
When you see me in an unperfect gown.
Looking up and down at my weird outfit,
Then laughed together and trying to fix it.
Sitting on a park bench, and you held my hand.
Pulled me closer and whispers to my ear.
Wished this night would never end,
I wanna be with you right here.
Went home and walked straight to my room
after everything that day,
Feeling tired and laid down on my bed,
my phone beeped and got a text that said,
"You look beautiful in that gown."

You're USELESS, I'm FEARLESS . ;)

What have I done wrong? It took me so damn long.

To realize you were playing your part again.

When is this sorrow going to end?

I'm in the room crying all my way through,

while you're happy you made me fell for you.

Why are you taking chances on me?

Why am i so blind to see?

The truth beneath your eyes,

Deceit beneath your lies.

Sitting in the cafe admiring your russet skin,

Glanced at the smile you've put in the scene.

Should have notice those hidden devil horns,

How much longer will this go on?

You have so many faces,

hard to recognize in every places.

Acting so innocent, feeling exuberance.

But you're a stranger to me, You kept using me.

And I didn't see that, And now I cant turn back.

What a waste of my heart, but this is just the start.

I felt so betrayed, but i didn't loose faith.

These tears may be dropping now, but its tears of regret.

These tears showed me how, not to forget.

The boy that I've forgiven, and made the same mistake again.

Am I that useful to you? Your friend's words are true.

Should have left you the first time you did me wrong.

It's alright, its okay. I will always stay strong.

I wouldn't use you, your useless.

I'll plan a better revenge, I'm fearless , :)

Unperfect Love

There's something bout the way, Your beautiful eyes shines today.

Made me feel like flying,It's wonderful, really something.

Miss you a thousand times, when are you gonna be mine?

Quickly break up with your girlfriend and reach for my hand.

I really need you now, I know you need me somehow.

But she's in our way, how long is she gonna stay?

I don't understand your feelings, You love me but you're with her.

you should know its confusing. You're just right between me and her.

You know I love you, and my feelings are true.

I know your feelings are the same, but she made our love a game.

Please give me and explanation, cause our love ain't perfection.

Epoch Shyness

Wish I could sit next to you,

But I doubt if you want to.

Took a deep breath,

Moved steps and walked in.

Stood at the left,

Sight making your way in.

Made a smile on your face,

I just stared at the staircase.

Chosen to sit at the end,

Lost the touch of your hand.

I guess we're both just too shy,

Help me before I get use to this guy.

Walking with you, is like a long journey.

Talking to you, makes me feel happy.

Great things happens in a blink of an eye.

But I guess I cant accept that I'm too shy.

The twilight view is romantically nice.

Eclipse is like the sparkle in your eyes.

I still shed a tear every once in a while.

I don't need my fears when I miss your smile.

The way I hear you laugh,

I can never get enough.

This fear will make me friendless.

These tears appears in loneliness.

Lets make and evasion, get out of this vision.

I've made a decision, left no explanation.

I'll close my eyes, hoping things would be right.

I'll think of this guy, each and every night.

I would try not to lie, But your eyes made me shy.

It takes a long time, for you to be mine.

True New.

Didn't knew each other,

You were a stranger.

Never dreamed what we had gone through.

Never knew I would find you.

Had a really crazy adventure,

How did we caught up together?

We had a beautiful journey,

Through feelings, sad and happy.

Through hurtful tears and fears.

of all it was a great year.

But this is not the ending,

Here we are, standing.

At the beginning,

You dropped into my heart,

Remind me this is just the start.

There's you in my picture,

There's you in my future.

Without you, I wont make it out,

Through this packed crowd.

I will always need you,

In everything I'm going through.

I know that it's true,

There's always something new,

Everything we talked about,

Are things I cant live without,

And that includes you

Black Gel Pen

When can we meet up?
Finally can hear you say "what's up!"
And starting to elastic me with your rubber band,
You will never put your hand down.
And I'm trying to pretend,
But the pain never ends.
Ran into each other,
Everyday in the hall way,
Starting to smile together,
Then turned to separate ways,
The days going to your class,
To borrow that stupid broom,
Just to clean my dirty class,
Then return it to you soon.
But now we cant even see the faces,
Cause we both lived in two different places,
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow,
Cause its late and your mama don't know.
Afraid to get busted, that is what you've never wanted.
After that 49:29 conversation ends.
I grabbed a paper and write down this poem with a black gel pen.

Burning Picture ;)

Go ahead and say,
hating me and don't want to stay.
Well, you cant run away,
I'm gonna hurt you everyday.
I'll do what you did to me,
No worries boy, you'll see.
What it's like to believe in someones lie,
What its like to think they made you fly.
You'll feel what its like to suffer in pain,
It wont feel like those tiny drops of rain.
What are you waiting for?
Go ahead and slam the door.
Spread the words, tell your friends,
Say that I'm obsessive and pathetic,
Tell that I'm crazy and you regret holding my hand,
Boy, you know our love was not that thick.
I know I'm not as good as her,
I'm so much better than her!
One day you'll wake up and realize that,
But i don't think by then I'll be turning back.
Sitting on the staircase,
When I turned and I saw your face,
Walking with that girl,
She'd be the only girl in this world,
That you ever wanted.
Congratulations, your wish has been granted.
Let's forget about us,
Let time moved fast.
But I'm doing pretty well,
I got back up when I fell.
So don't worry boy,
you don't need to fix this toy!
You don't need our picture anymore,
We never looked better before,
Laying her head down on your shoulder,
Would be your next favorite picture.
Boy you will see,
I'll plan my revenge.
Nothing is stopping me,
from dating your best friend!
As far as i know,
he's much more better than you.
I'd never let him go,
Cause i know his feelings are true.
And don't hope that I'll return,
Cause that damn picture is going to burn.

Remember November!

Can we count the days?
Will memories stay?
Will it still be this way?
What would you say?
It's been a really wonderful year,
A year full of laughter and tears;
A year worth remembering,
A year hard to forget,
A story that's exciting,
A kept memory you wont regret;
An experience I didn't gone through alone,
An experience I gone through with the people that i known,

Everyday we spend our time in school,
Studying in class, sitting on a stool.
Write notes about lessons learned,
Revise the knowledge that we earned.
Cant wait for the bell to ring,
I can hear the students whispering,
Wondering what they should do by recess,
Are they going to chill with their princess?
Everyday that is what they would do,
At least that is what i heard but it is true.
i bet they're going to miss those days,
Cause next year it wont be the same way;

Remembering those days when we were in a strife,
Hating the other side of my life,
I have to admit I lost in that game,
In my head there is always whispers of your names;
That brought me down,
i need you around;
being with you i learned a lot,
Especially after we fought;

We all need friends,
Cause they'd be the only ship that never ends.
This year, I fought all my fears,
I found friends that would take away my tears.
They'll always be there,
They'll always care;
They'll always understand,
They'll always lend a hand;

I've found a friend who has the sweetest smile,
A smile i will never find over a thousand miles;
Whenever he is around,
I felt safe and sound;
Without him by my side,
I felt lonely inside;
And also a friend,
Who thinks he's the cutest among the ten;
He loves to make fun of me,
But dude, I'll pay back, you'll see!
I found him interesting,
Cause when there's him, there's always story telling;
He would share anything with me,
And he would always ask for my advice;
He will always there to see,
The truth and the lies;

Another friend who i can depend on,
And he will always make our sorrow begone.
He was always there to help,
If there are problems that we'd tell;
And this friend who rarely speaks,
But deeply he is a nice guy,
He has a really sweet cheek,
But sometimes he could be really shy;

This month is the last month,
The last month we're in school together,
In this special month,
I think its the greatest of all the others;
This month is full of laughter,
This month we finally gathered together,
Through every up, through every down,
You know ill always be around;
Through the highs and the lows,
Time will never go slow.

After Christmas say goodbye,
New year will say hi;
Its a new adventure,
There will be a bright future;
I don't think ill be find by myself.
I know a dream is a wish that i make all alone.
Well, Its easy to feel like you don't need help,
But its harder to walk on your own;

I just need you by my side,
Then everything will be alright;
I need you there when I'm scared,
I know that you would care;
I'll never feel alone,
You'll always help me find my way back home;
When you start the new adventure,
Please don't burn the picture;

Take a dream,
succeed for it;
Take a scene,
act for it;
Take a chance,
For what we had;
Take a glance,
Of what's ahead;
But don't forget,
Keep this special month forever.
You wont regret,
If you would just remember;

Remember November!

Please and Thank You!

My dear friend,
I'm sorry but this has to end;
I know you're trying to help,
But I want this problem to be kept;
Thank you for your empathy,
But it's enough by your sympathy.
You would share the pain,
Now I'm walking in the rain,
So that people wouldn't notice,
That my tears are dropping.
But people will notice,
That lonely, I'm walking.
I deserve this,
But you're not meant to do this.
Thank you for being there,
I know you would care,
But this is my fight,
let me make it right.
I promise when everything work out,
I'll leave you no doubt.
I'll tell you everything you need to know.
But now, please let me go.

only you can do that;

You've been really understanding,
About my feelings.
You will never let me down,
You'll make it as good as it sounds;
But you've done better,
You brought laughter.
All i had was a smile,
Until you came in a while.
I cant stop with all the blessings,
I'm so lucky that I've found you.
Who will help me in everything,
I'm going through.
See that ray of light,
Shining out so bright.
There is where i found,
Someone who will always be around.
It doesn't matter who you are,
And you can stay way far.
But you would be the only star,
That would make me look into the sky,
And keep my head held high.

Dark Weather =(

Sitting on my bed,
Through my window,
I can see the sunset,
Watching the sun sets slow.
It is really beautiful,
But seeing the grey clouds,
Makes me feel painful.
And it gave me so many doubts,
It means it's going to rain,
The grey clouds are going to cry,
I know it's a lot of pain.
Can't stop it but I'll try.
The thunders and lighting,
Just like their quarreling,
Why do they have to fight?
And now nothing is right.
I could be the crying clouds,
They could be the quarreling thunder and lighting;
I don't know how to work this out.
But i am so trying;

Life In My Action

In our daily life,
We must have once strife;
Cause nobody is perfect,
Some people also act;
People could be fake,
Everybody makes mistakes;
There must be a reason in everything we do,
There's a destiny in everything we've gone through;
Things around cant stay the same,
Everything, every one will change.
Maybe not how we wanted,
Not every wish has to be granted;
Don't be so sure about everything,
Cause everything can change in just a blink;
We may see the past,
but we cant see the future.
We don't know how long love will last,
But memories can be kept in a picture;
Everybody has a problem of their own.
And they'll share it with their friends on the phone.
But what if the problems are their friends?
I'm stuck in this labyrinth.
I don't want our friendship to end,
Please give me a hint;
I'm tired of pretending,
Without them I'm nothing.
Pretended that I'm happy when I'm not;
I wanna say this honestly,
I miss you guys a lot;
The whispers of your names,
Got me suffering in this game;
I wished all of this would slow down,
It's just going to fast;
Don't know how long i can stay on the ground,
How long this would last?
I know i put this on myself.
But now I'm sitting alone next to the bookshelf;
I challenged myself into this,
But now I'm not sure if i can get it over with;
I thought having sometimes alone,
Would calm my mind;
I need the people that i known,
To help me cross the line;
But I wont give up,
I will keep on refill the cup;
I need to stay strong,
Even when everything goes wrong;
I have to make things right,
I wanna stop this fight;
Just give me a break,
Hope its not too late;
Cause I know this is life..
Action is a rife;
There's Life In My Action;

The Growing Friends

Sitting by the window,
Watching all the fireflies glow;
Its better than watching a tv show,
It'll let my mind think slow;
The only thing on my mind are them,
The greatest, most wonderful and truest friends;
They have always been there to understand,
They will always be around to lend a hand;
I have a friend who has the sweetest smile,
A smile i will never find over a thousand miles;
I have a friend who is crazy and fun,
If it's someone to cheer me up,she'd be the one;
And friends who will always help,
If there are problems that we tell;
Another friend who is really a nice guy,
But sometimes he could be really shy;
We've been through moments that were good and bad,
Even moments that were happy and sad;
All the times we argue and fight,
deep inside i know that it isn't right;
you're a friend who's always there,
throughout the years,
A friend who i know will care,
and take away my tears;
We're stuck together when we're in fear,
If i loose, you guys will still cheer;
You guys mean a lot to me,
You guys are one in a million to be;
I want to apologies for my mistakes,
I feel bad and a lot of pain,
Feels like I've fallen from the sky like the rain;
Now I'm seeing the brightest star,
There, i know its where you are;
You guys shines bright,
Like a fire burning light.
I will never forget our long laughter,
Because it will never make me feel better.
I know i cant live without you guys,
I will always need your advise;
Promise me we wont break apart,
And i will always keep you in my heart;
[.aini.jojo.percy.paolo.yuvin.shugan.]
[02/10/2009]
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