With or Without ??

I can't keep on to this any longer ,

Being with you made me felt better .

Hating you made me felt awesome ,

Thought of like the flower blossom .

Our love could be bigger ,

Wished to stay this way forever .

But still , you made it hateful .

And taking every step, its painful .

I thrown all of your stuff away ,

But the memories would always stay .

I'm confused , what am I feeling ?

Can't loose in every breath I'm taking .

You're so ridiculous , I can hardly breathe .

But you're fabulous , Don't know if I'd see .

Screaming and fighting , Loving and blurring .

Hate and pain , Cursing your name .

Cant be with or without you .