BREATHE ,

Wake me up , tell me , save me . Cause I cant find myself . The true me I used to believe , the true me I found , lost again . Everything turned around in a glint . Back then , I thought of if I ever loose you , will I be able to continue breathing . And now that I've lost you , I cant breathe . Without you I'm nothing , I don't know who I suppose to be . I'm tired of pretending to be someone I'm not , cause it doesn't feel right . But with you , I felt different . When we're together , we could make anything happen , and I know we can . But when we're together , we had only seen the outside view , we never knew whats struggling deeply inside . And its not halcyon . It was like the glade of pain . But does that means we have to be apart ? I tried to fulfill your thoughts , I tried so hard to make us both happy . But I omitted that . And now I cant face reality . Obvious , I didn't get my perfect fantasy . This ain't a fairy tale . We cant just make a wish and wave a magic wand, those were childhood stories . I don't know how to cure this . I swear I can hardly breathe , felt like theres pressure in my lungs . Its like our lungs were tied together , and you kept holding my breath . Hope you know its not easy for me . I tried to move on so much . I couldn't just walk away and forget about you , I tried , but somehow you could popped out in my mind . I wish I could take back the steps that I took , to find my mistake . I know we argue a lot , but my love is just strong enough to get over it . But I doubt if you love me like you say you do , I doubt everything you say to me . I may seem like I don't care for you , but thats just me trying to cover it up . I'm dying , but you somehow don't care anymore . I might just erase you from my mind , cause I know you did that with me already . Well , nothing left to say , this is goodbye , I wish you the best with , BELLA .

MELODY ,

I tried so hard to make both of us happy . But somehow you could just run away with "sorry". Mistakes , lies , those were full in you . And I've never saw it all the way through . You hurt me , a lot . And I would let you torture me , all the time . They cant see the smile I'm faking , and they never knew whats in my mind . I'm not interested in hurting you back . I know maybe I'm not good enough for you . Neither do you . They said I deserve better , I know I do , but I don't want better though . I love that funny , sensitive and always quibbles guy . I know I'm fleeting in your mind . I set my heart upon a hope , for you to think about me . And mend this mar connection . I couldn't be lust . Its like the voice in our song faded slowly . I see your face and my heart races . Your standing across the aisle and I couldnt help but glance . I tried to leave you , but there is just something about you . You have this effect on me that just makes me wanna crawl right back to you . My heart lost the other half , and its right inside you . But too late , you gave it away to another girl . Now I dont know what to be without you . We screamed , we fought , we danced in the rain . We had to skip the movie to watch the football game . Through all , betwixt wonderful and hurtful romance . If I didnt care , I wouldnt talk , think , or write about you .What hurts me is knowing that you are not mine .You're running through my mind all day , but its just my little secret . You just dont know it , I wish you did .If I didnt care for you , I wouldnt cry for you every night . As I sat on my bed , with you stuck in my head . I played my guitar , and tears start dropping . I sang a melody , hope to god you're listening . Just thought I should let you know ,

I miss you so much .

SHADOWS ,

None of us thought this it was going to end this way . All of the butterflies in my tummy flew away . I don't feel anything anymore . Its different . I've lost him , unexpectedly . Never thought it wouldn't work out . As I saw his face in the hallway , our direction would turn into separate ways . He used to sit across my table , but I don't find him anymore . Everything changed , way too much . I swear I miss him , but I couldn't touch his hand . He's not for me . This world is full of people pretending to be who they are not , but when I'm with him , I know who I suppose to be . Now I don't know what to be without him around . And I know its never easy to forget him . Cause we went through a lot . All those arguing , crying , CUTTING . That's what made us tight , we learned from it . But this time , it has ended . Without wisdom . I felt deeply confused , never thought he's the one I would loose . I know , I'm not as perfect as her . But right now , I'm truthful , thats for sure . He's the only one at the back of my head , he's stuck in my breath . But I couldn't find his person . What I felt was his shadow . His shadow is whats left . And it only shows the part of his thought about me . While the other side of his life is filled by that bitch . He's bygone . So let it be . Let that shadow haunt me . As the wind blows the withered leaves , as I sat under that willow tree . As my tears dropped on the pages , as I put wan through many faces . His shadow, was always inside me.

WORDS ,

He said he loves me , he said he cant live without me . But look at him now , where is his position . Could somebody tell me how , to survive this situation . He's not standing next to me no more , he doesn't say he loves me , no more . Wake me up and save me , tell me he's not right for me . Promises , words , those are just lies . He used to have that sparkle in his eyes . But now it's like the faded light in the sun , all of the shadows coming undone . Sparks in his eyes , were just darkness of his lies . All of it faded away , left me scentless , colorless , friendless , I felt so LONELY . Everybody keeps telling me , "move on" , "forget bout him", "he's not worth it" , "you deserve better" . Well , that's all they can say . Its just the same words everyday . They solaced , I tried to comprehend , but I drooped . Our love was such a vain , this time he made me wane . Everybody could easily try to make me get over him , but its not a lark to get over someone you've been together with for almost two years . I thought seeing him from far away was enough , and I even thrown away all his stuff . But I guess I was wrong , I cant even stay strong . I felt so used , but I dont want to believe that . And I know I was , but nobody can turn back . And now I'm just sitting at the corner of the room thinking what I did wrong . Not hanging out with the clique and trying to bring me back to life . Just sitting alone , feeling depressed , hurt . And who knows how long I would cling to this emotion . The teardrops on my face , I'm crying for him . I can hardly breathe , and this is when I needed him the most . But he's with another girl . And So I'm in the dark , couldnt see the light shineth , couldnt hear any voice sayeth . Alone in darkness , Tears in loneliness . Well , this is thus of believing in

" I LOVE YOU "

Love , I guess thats just how it works . But I guess I know why everybody wants it so much . Its the closest thing we have to magic .

She Cant , She Doesnt , She's not for YOU ,

She cant see the way you run your finger through your hair ,

every time you are shy .

She cant see the way you stop and stare ,

every time she passed by .

She never notice how your eyes sparkle when you smile .

She doesn't know you the way I do ,

she doesn't love you the way I want to .

But you only see me through .

I'm the one that you never knew .

I felt invisible , if we're together , it would be a miracle .

You are worth fighting for ,

but , I guess now , you won't need me anymore .

Be my friend ,

Why do i feel this ?

Why must it be like this ?

My feelings i cant be sure .

The lines that i cleared, are now blur .

I cant get this through ,

Could never get over you .

I want this to end ,

Want you to be my friend .

I'm dieing in this misery ,

But I want to be alone .

Go ahead and kill me deeply ,

I wanna bleed on my own .

Another glance , lets be friends .

I dont want to have your romance .

I could never love you again ,

Not more than a friend .

I wanna take everything slow ,

I wanna go through this sorrow ,

Through every tears , I will learn .

Through every breath and romance burned .

You are no more my lover ,

You are just a former .

Please be my friend ,

Let me survive this pain .

Its 3 a.m. ,

And I'm cursing your name .

I can love you no more ,

And I'm closing the door .

Please understand ,

Just be a friend .

With or Without ??

I can't keep on to this any longer ,

Being with you made me felt better .

Hating you made me felt awesome ,

Thought of like the flower blossom .

Our love could be bigger ,

Wished to stay this way forever .

But still , you made it hateful .

And taking every step, its painful .

I thrown all of your stuff away ,

But the memories would always stay .

I'm confused , what am I feeling ?

Can't loose in every breath I'm taking .

You're so ridiculous , I can hardly breathe .

But you're fabulous , Don't know if I'd see .

Screaming and fighting , Loving and blurring .

Hate and pain , Cursing your name .

Cant be with or without you .

True Love

A true love happens all the time ,

But you cant buy it with just a dime .

You need to fulfill her with all your heart ,

Or you both will sadly break apart .

Someday she'll listen to you ,

Maybe even love you too .

But you cant make it a secret that you keep ,

Or you wont be the page in her diary that she'd flip .

It may be tough , but let it out .

Proof to her that you're not a trout .

So raise your voice and shout ,

" You're the one I can't live without ! "

You're Gone ,

It's like the faded light in the sun ,

With half of my work undone .

Couldn't see the spark shineth

Couldn't hear your voice sayeth

Wish i were right there,

standing next to you,

On a balcony in summer air .

And enjoy the beautiful view .

When will come spring ?

hear the robin sings .

Sitting under that willow tree ,

With you reading a book right next to me .

Took me to see your blooming garden ,

Picked a beautiful rose .

Helped me bake cookies in the oven ,

Praised me and pinched my nose .

As I grew up the wall gets high ,

Thought that we're stuck, but you said goodbye .

Passing away saith my soul ,

You left me feeling so cold .

Shivers and in pain ,

Showed the shadow in the rain .

You're gone ...

True Friends ,

You can say that they're the losers,
But they're definitely the winners.
Maybe they dont always comes first,
Cause they'll care for the ones who was left behind.
They will fill us when we're in thirst,
And be with us together to cross the line.
It's sad when you cant reach the nightsky stars,
But why have to go that far,
When you can reach the brightest star,
That will always accept us for who we are.
By day, they are the brightest star on the ground,
By night they are the enchanting star in the sky.
They will never let us down,
They will always keep our head held high.
They've been with us through goods and bads,
Even moments that were happy and sad.
Through our journey of tears and laughters,
Stuck in fear and survive together.
I could never keep a smile that way,
With them around, everything's okay.
They will always understand and will always lend a hand.
Because they are my TRUE FRIENDS .

The Fall ,

The future came from the past,
Memories captured as time moved fast.
Really hope to slow things down,
But my feet cant stay on the ground.
Feeling pulled away by the wind,
Feeling the pain on my skin.
Tired of holding on to that pole,
Didn't knew you're stuck in my soul.
I'm standing right at the edge,
Waiting for you to make the catch.
But it's too late, there's no escape,
I'm still gonna fall, its the last call.
I'm sorry for everything my dear,
I would think this is my last tear.
I cant stay strong anymore,
I know you're worth fighting for.
But, i want you to be happy,
Lets forget our painful history.
Get me out of your life,
Forget about this strife.
The struggles I'm facing,
I'm tangled in loosing.
I cant face my fears,
Even when you're here.

Believe

Revealed the true me today,
Found myself and ran away.
Never knew the voice I had,
that's been pulling me back.
The sound I shouldn't have find,
has been hiding in my mind.
Where is my truthful place ?
The dream that I have to chase.
The journey I'm taking,
The tears I'm shading.
Gave me so many doubts,
I need to figure this out.
I'm feeling so confused, but I cant loose.
Sometimes things may go wrong,
but i need to stay strong.
someone told me not to care what people say,
Just keep it real and make it my own way.
speak out when the right time reaches,
and be proud of our own choices.
it doesn't matter what people say,
It doesnt matter how long it takes.
You will never fade away,
If you would learn from your mistakes.
Life with wrongs is a perfect life,
we need mistake to survive.
We need to learn from every mistakes that we made,
and there would exist a new adventure to explore .
Just believe in yourself and it's never too late,
A dream is something worth fighting for.
We may be going through sorrow and deceit,
But we just need hope and faith.
Take a deep breath and take the first step.

The Perfect Gown ;

I love the way you put your eyes on me,
I love the way you laugh and joke with me.
The way you smile and frown,
When you see me in an unperfect gown.
Looking up and down at my weird outfit,
Then laughed together and trying to fix it.
Sitting on a park bench, and you held my hand.
Pulled me closer and whispers to my ear.
Wished this night would never end,
I wanna be with you right here.
Went home and walked straight to my room
after everything that day,
Feeling tired and laid down on my bed,
my phone beeped and got a text that said,
"You look beautiful in that gown."

You're USELESS, I'm FEARLESS . ;)

What have I done wrong? It took me so damn long.

To realize you were playing your part again.

When is this sorrow going to end?

I'm in the room crying all my way through,

while you're happy you made me fell for you.

Why are you taking chances on me?

Why am i so blind to see?

The truth beneath your eyes,

Deceit beneath your lies.

Sitting in the cafe admiring your russet skin,

Glanced at the smile you've put in the scene.

Should have notice those hidden devil horns,

How much longer will this go on?

You have so many faces,

hard to recognize in every places.

Acting so innocent, feeling exuberance.

But you're a stranger to me, You kept using me.

And I didn't see that, And now I cant turn back.

What a waste of my heart, but this is just the start.

I felt so betrayed, but i didn't loose faith.

These tears may be dropping now, but its tears of regret.

These tears showed me how, not to forget.

The boy that I've forgiven, and made the same mistake again.

Am I that useful to you? Your friend's words are true.

Should have left you the first time you did me wrong.

It's alright, its okay. I will always stay strong.

I wouldn't use you, your useless.

I'll plan a better revenge, I'm fearless , :)

Unperfect Love

There's something bout the way, Your beautiful eyes shines today.

Made me feel like flying,It's wonderful, really something.

Miss you a thousand times, when are you gonna be mine?

Quickly break up with your girlfriend and reach for my hand.

I really need you now, I know you need me somehow.

But she's in our way, how long is she gonna stay?

I don't understand your feelings, You love me but you're with her.

you should know its confusing. You're just right between me and her.

You know I love you, and my feelings are true.

I know your feelings are the same, but she made our love a game.

Please give me and explanation, cause our love ain't perfection.